have you ever felt like you were a shadow?
i am not talking about living in someone’s shadow or being overlooked. i am talking about living your everyday life in a shadow. where you can fully function, think, and act like a normal human being but you just are there.
i realized tonight that i am at a place in my life where i finally see the light. all the years i was complacent to do the things that i thought people wanted me to do.
to be in a job that i went to everyday – that gave me a guaranteed paycheck
a job that i excelled at but did not enjoy
the choices of things i bought because i was complacent
well today i realized that this month alone i have been challenged by many things – beyond what i thought i ever could do – professionally & personally. and i finally feel that i have accomplished something on my own without guidance from a boss, without self guessing what i needed to do.
some times were scary – scary as hell, and times that i thought WTF am i doing, can i do this. but i pushed through ( and still pushing through on many of them) to do what is better . and this will sound odd and maybe contradicting but i am doing things and putting effort toward things that make a difference and not just for me. i am helping others in a community that put trust in me to help make decisions – to find out answers when no one else could or can.
so i leave with this… sit in the light not on the edge of it.
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