Have you ever had one of those days where you could have one more moment with a loved one? Death is hard… on the living.
What I mean by that is … well, here, just let me share with you my morning.
I arrived at my office this morning to find that my computer was out of memory, so I needed to clean up some of my files and delete the ones I did not need anymore. In doing so, I found 2 voicemails from my mom.
My mom passed away May 29 2020. I would call her almost every night on my way home from work just to get caught up on our days and to hear her voice. Hearing her voice was like a warm hug on good and bad days.
I happened to have those 2 voice messages on my computer: “Hi, it’s me. I was just checking on you.” Oh my gosh, hearing her voice brought me comfort and tears. My mom was a loving mother who could talk me off a ledge and get me back to reality with compassion and soothing honesty. And yes, we all have our demons, and she was not excused from that – it was hard to watch her demons overcome her – but I still loved her at the end of the day.
Love is a HUGE emotion, word, and commitment. I loved her yesterday, I love her today, and I will love her tomorrow. Once you love someone so deeply and with no holds barred, it cuts you deep when you lose them in the physical world.
IT’S OK – It’s ok to have moments of deep sadness, and it’s ok to hate that moment – but don’t fear the emotion. This will kill you and will shut you down.
I leave with this poem and a song that speaks so loudly… that spoke to me. I hope it helps someone else. And thanks to Donna Ashworth for sharing her gift of these words.
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